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  1. Sharing from the heart. PTSD has been a living hell for me. I have spent 38 years living reactions to it, trying to piece my own personal story together and wanting to create peace and self love. I grew up in a home with violence, abuses and trauma. I was also sexually abused by a first cousin for years. I have no clue how old I was when it started and ended, a neighbour of mine before I was 7. I also KNOW it started in my home at an earlier age. I am guessing 3 years old and one of them was my father (I think there were 3 person(s) actually) based on my cellular memories and nightmares of it. The long list of childhood symptoms include bed wetting, nightmares, insomnia, nail biting, migraines, projectile vomiting, black outs, urinary tract infections, candida, anxiety, very early childhood development, masturbation, acting out sexual actions, huge amount of anger, poor concentration, over eating, fear of dr’s, dentists and anyone in authority. I functioned through it all. Spent over half of my life in therapy once I realized at about 13 years old that it wasn’t normal or supposed to happen to you and trying to get away from the family relationships that were present and/or helped create it. My list of adult symptoms is too long and too complex to share.
    Along the way I became spiritual and worked on healing myself through Reiki, NLP, meditation, self love practices and following my intuition. I haven’t been diagnosed with anything specific but it is clear PTSD has been with me my whole life as long as I can recall. I know there are brain issues with wires being crossed that move beyond triggers and reactions. I have had things heal on their own and learned a lot about the natural healing processes along the way. I have relived many of the physical and emotional responses while having spiritual evolution to coincide with the amount self love, surrender and acceptance I can allow myself. Fear has played a major role being trapped in the emotional walls of traumas, my age and cognitive development at the time of traumas and integration with those childhood parts of myself. A landslide of guilt, shame and an overpowering sense of unworthiness and being unlovable also.
    Personally finding trauma support has been very difficult. I chose not to take any drugs in my healing journey. Having someone listen through years of therapy was highly supportive in my world where there was/is a lot of denial and projection pointed at me the victim, …. or now as I say ‘survivor’. Lack of support from people around me, combined with the inability to hold close or trustworthy relationships causes a lot of suffering. People in my inner circle have no clue what PTSD is, they lack an ability to want to learn or have some understanding or empathy. It is easier for them to say ‘get over it’ or ‘let’s talk about something else’. I have lost many friendships over issues related to this… and I have run from many also. I have had many failed sexual/dating relationships over not being able to be intimate with those that wanted that from me, from me wanting excessive attention over love, for wanting a type of sense of security that will never be there, for me wanting someone to love me enough to save me and for me wanting the fantasy of someone to accept me as I am now completely/unconditionally like from a loving parent, instead of building a long trusting relationship over time. I jumped in with two feet every time… not knowing healthy boundaries and thinking sex meant connection as that is what I had learned or came to believe.
    Also overcoming PTSD and finding myself and my truths has become the only sense of indentity I have for myself besides being spiritual. I didn’t start off with a healthy sense of my body, of caring for myself or my well being… all of those beautiful gifts were taken from me with my innocence. My sense of wonder, my ability to feel comforted… all gone. So putting the puzzle together has been the only sense of self integrity and strength that I have. Where did I come from and why am I the way I am. Not being normal, feeling formal, reacting normal… has been HUGE in my self loathing and demise as well as driving force to better myself. Although if you look up PTSD I am perfectly normal or even perhaps above normal for what is possible after having lived such traumas. I could have become an addict or an abuser… the tendencies where there. I have to watch foods, alcohol and wanting to take an easy road over a more worthy one.
    All of this to say. I don’t have all the answers. PTSD is very complex at best. Each journey is one of personal experiences, awarenesses and healings and will vary greatly as will any and all healing or healing modalities. Shifts take place through divine timing based on spaces that become created and on ones natural ability to move through them. You can’t force the doors open but having safety/healthy strategies and a safe place to share is vital. Teaching self love is key… self care, self acceptance, and not feeling alone have helped me personally. I bless the mother above who is acting as a loving advocate, nurturer and active participant in her daughters journey… may all of our hearts heal along the way. Blessings to all who have had trauma, pain suffering and any of the aforementioned and may we walk together. I have also learned the amount of courage it takes to speak our truths, to create change and to become intimate with ourselves and others. These are triumphs.

  2. Brenda, I felt compelled, on this Sunday morning, to respond…I’m guessing you might return to see if there was a response to your question about can you be cured?…you are not broken and you do not require fixing and it was not your fault….and most especially, it is never too late in life. you are of course, already one with all that is good in this universe…you are not apart from the good, you are a part of the good and it is already of you..
    …energy guided resources such as vibrational resonance and tapping techniques many report they find of amazing compliment in dissipating density and basically stickiness of lower resonances that hold an ongoing ‘story’ alive in such pain. (I do not mean story as in something made up that did not previously occur). Rather story that its residue continues as a present chapter of life limiting pain.
    You may enjoy a treasure hunt to find the work of Panache Desai and explore Jo Dunning’s website. Among others-these two very gifted energy beings are frequent on line speakers and as they speak literally seem to reach listener/participants with energy itself far beyond the actual words…nothing that can be measured to be described in a clinical trial-rather touching people around the globe and creating shifts and life changes. It sounded from your comment that you may be open for something different so…
    Also, don’t know if you are familiar with Donna Eden’s Energy Medicine-that book and her latest Energy Medicine for Women hold fascinating info and specific activities and practices to do to help change basic electrical energy systems of our beings.
    Yoga and Martial arts are also experienced by a lot of folks as core in reconnecting to mastery and taking back, with awareness thru every cell of the whole being , all the power and greatness that is already yours and just waiting to be able to show again.
    hope something here serves as you go forward in your great adventure…

    • Jody: What a beautiful, loving, and so extremely helpful response you gave to Brenda. I am extremely curious about your training and where you are practicing. My email address is barbarahunt@earthlink.net if you would care to respond.

  3. Dear Dr. Ruth,
    I am chronologically 79-years old, and have had my shortened telomeres made longer, and thus reduced my biological age by 20-percent (Spectracell Labs telomere test). The most effective means is through culturing one’s own stem cells that circulate in our blood stream. A simple venous blood draw will provide some circulating stem cells (bone marrow hematopoietic and mesenchymal stem cells) that can be cultured to grow lots of them (without differentiating into progenitor cells). These are then harvested and injected back into the body to fill your depleted “warehouse” of replacement cells with fresh new cells. We have stem cells throughout our body, and this normal adult-stem-cell repair mechanism begins to fail as we age, not because of shortened telomeres in our stem cells (because they lengthen there telomeres and thus are essentially immortal) rather there is a breakdown in the cellular signaling pathway (Notch Delta) that activates mitosis in the germ-line stem cells; the delta receptors become less responsive. Thus, enhancing receptor sensitivity is a major key to reversing aging.
    Gerald Vind
    http://www.pnri.net
    ghvind@yahoo.com

  4. This is the first time I’m hearing about PSTD. I have spent a fortune and still unable to function in society. Still so very limited in my ability to grow, to achieve, believe in my self. I’ve done so much to get well and nothing has any great effect. I’m 65 years old, and still fell frozen in my childhood. I grow up without mother and father. My mother died when I was 18 months old amd father abandoned me when I was 6. The lady’s house he dropped me off at was abusive from the moment I came to the time I left at 17. I have no lasting relationships at all. Life is still like living with her fighting with people most of the time. there has been no love in my life. I have not been able to love myself, and have confidence in me. Unable to make progress in my life. I watch people around me grow and make progress and I stay at stand still so depressing. Ive always struggled with learning, focus, and concentration problems all my life. Is there a cure for me at this late stage of my life.

  5. Your article is a masterpiece.Here is my comment on my adult treatment,much of my PTSD arises from childhood abuse in a phobic inducing high control religious cult.
    PTSD treatment for Veterans found ineffective.
    Eli Lilly made $65 billion on the Zyprexa franchise.Lilly was fined $1.4 billion for Zyprexa fraud!
    The atypical antipsychotics (Zyprexa,Risperdal,Seroquel) are like a ‘synthetic’ Thorazine,only they cost ten times more than the old fashioned typical antipsychotics.
    These newer generation drugs still pack their list of side effects like diabetes for the user.All these drugs work as so called ‘major tranquilizers’.This can be a contradiction with PTSD suffers as we are hyper vigilant and feel uncomfortable with a drug that puts you to sleep and makes you sluggish.
    That’s why drugs like Zyprexa don’t work for PTSD survivors like myself.
    -Daniel Haszard FMI http://www.zyprexa-victims.com

  6. I think unresolved trauma comes up in later life for some adults. I’d like to know whether successfully treating trauma at that time would actually restore the telomeres (and those lost years)? Seems to me, hypothetically, it would lengthen life but I don’t know whether it is possible to repair telomeres?? I’d love to know. Thanks!

  7. These scientific studies validate what is already so obviously true for me, that is trauma affects all levels of being, emotional, spiritual and physical.
    The scale of Post traumatic stress is sooo large, and deep, I am passionate about learning and working with effective channels of healing.

  8. Also, more recently, I have certified as Trauma-Based Cognitive Behavior Therapist and used this approach with 3 children thus far. Works best with intelligent, verbally proficient children, but can be adapted for others. More cognitive than experiential so not appropriate for all children.

  9. Thank you for offering the intro and broadcasts! Ruth, so you know of any studies reporting the efficacy of experiential land-based therapies for children, adolescents or adults with PTSD?
    Colleagues at the 200-acre retreat center where I work are interested in proposing a practical, therapeutic program including active participation in the permaculture garden and stewardship of the land. All comments/suggestions welcome.

    • Have you considered the native knowledge of the land and using some of the elders, or uncles and aunts initiation process’s, that are suitable of course:)

  10. First, thank you for all your work and your invitation to hear experts from all over using all kinds of methods dealing with trauma. My daughter has severe PSTD first from her birth due to almost dying of heart failure after three weeks in the NICU (heart defect was not the problem ~ the stress/trauma of intervention). Since that time period, those that could not understand her PSTD has caused more and more trauma to layer on top of the original trauma beyond any lineage DNA trauma she has also inherited. Her systems were still progressing years ago due to additional toxicities from vaccines, oral surgery for three stainless steel crowns (later found out high amount of nickel) and then minor heart surgery to seal two small holes one of which was with a titanium coil (later found out 57% nickel). All heavy metals off the chart resulting in seizures of abnormal behavior/neurological/physical symptoms (24 hr monitoring was 59 seizures and I think it was 481 electrical spikes to the brain). I testified at FDA’s open hearing on non-disclosure of medical devices. We have used a variety of energy modalities to clear many layers of her dysfunction and disconnects. We were able to alleviate the seizures down to almost only new trauma relating back to the many layers of old trauma. Her seizures have reduced to panic attacks – if aggravated can go into a full blown seizure. Now my husband still cannot ‘deal’ with her dysfunction (in therapy for that) and is still seen as a threat. Thus key ingredient is stopping, healing and transforming home situation (at this point heal or divorce). Since the current threat is still present her fear has her confined into safe places. Since the PTS is current, she has now developed agoraphobia. She individually has navigated so much and is so much better, but until the final family situation is resolved, the trauma is current. Husband has stopped his behavior but the relationship is shadowed by all the past trauma and Husband is not capable without help to move beyond current situation, nor is the eleven year old child. I can definitely attest to the stress trauma physically affecting this child. I am currently training under Forensic Healing (have studied psych k, EFT and have all Feinstein’s training videos) as a system that allows for the process of going through the layers methodically revealing each pathway and releasing/rewiring the energy. My plan is to fully navigate this with my child and write a book regarding the process and discovery. Thank you.

  11. Love expands, fear contracts – even on a DNA level! Fascinating and confirming.
    I was circumcised at age 7 and now I work to save children from this unnecessary trauma.
    Once I realized what had happened to me as a child (when I was in my 52nd year) – I cleared a lot of the old PTSD, but fear was re-triggered by 2.5 years of exposure to drug-manufacturing neighbors. Am working now to release all that.
    I personally believe that life is relentless – it continues to reminder when we still need to clear out ancient fear – and yet kind, because we are here to do that healing and we want to finish our work before we leave.
    Breathe in…. breathe out…

  12. I am a 80 year old survivor of intergenerational PTSD. I am a Native American and registered member of a tribe in Wisconsin. I have grappled with my symptoms since I was three years old – symptoms including painful “orders” to kill myself. I only completely recovered about three years ago when I was given “orders” to write a book about my experiences in self help.
    The point being – my “telomeres” seem to be OK – I am physically very healthy and happily looking forward to writing and speaking.
    Ruth I appreciate so much your bringing new methods to therapists – I wish when I was trying so hard to find help when I was young that I could have found someone who had this kind of understanding…instead I was forced upon my own methods…but my “methods” worked for me.

    • Ronnie, I’m so sorry you went through that, but I’m so glad you will be writing about it. It will be very cathartic for you, and of course you will help so many people who have also gone through similar things. But most importantly, perhaps, is that therapists can hear from you about your experiences which will enable them to understand it on a personal level vs. theoretically only.